30 June, 2020

Helping hands



I remember a visit from Dr Tarun George, a resident in medicine in September, 2013, a few days before my coronary by-pass surgery who brought a handout with him to give me about the preparation for surgery and some important suggestions for the post surgery season. It was a valuable document which I read and re-read to get a feel of what it might be during surgery and after surgery. 

The article discussed the post surgery scene vividly- the sense of wellness that would set in, recovery of exercise tolerance, increase in energy level, the desire to return to normal pace of life which was  compromised before surgery, a likely depressive orientation due to an awareness of coronary heart disease, etc. 

Now seven years after surgery, I still value Tarun's thoughtfulness to bring that informative handout which prepared me to think on issues, I would not have normally considered. 

The rose flower above is the first flower in a plant we planted three months ago. It was clothed in rain drops. 

This flower became a symbol of wellness and goodness I experienced during the last seven years. 

St Paul in I Corin.4:1 referred to a profound through that came to my mind during the walk in the garden, 'Let a man regard us in this manner, as servants of Christ and stewards of the mysteries of God'. This phrase set me thinking as I live now a life that was redeemed from my coronary heart disease. I live because years were added to my life after surgery. The role of a servant is to be a listener. In the silence of the interior life, the mysteries of God would become experiential. 

It was while talking to family from the UK yesterday in an online consultation, this dawned on to me. After a forty minutes conversation, the family said, ' Thank you for listening'! I became more conscious of the vocation of listening after my surgery because there was a new sense of gratefulness which has grown within me. 

I went through a intensely difficult season following surgery with strain in relationships which became a burden to carry. During the last three years, I began to experience progressively the mystery of being a servant. A servant can do only as much as he is trusted or needed. When everything looked dark for a season, I found that it is not enough to be a servant, but one ought to move on to experience the mystery of   alienation, loneliness and sense of failure. 

The rose flower was covered with water drops. My attention turned to many experiences of grace which have been special during the last three years. I stayed too long thinking of the strained relationships, until a year back, I was made conscious of the 'givenness of life' as an opportunity' well beyond the difficult experiences. 

I celebrate the last one year as a season of a growing consciousness in sensing the mystery of life and living. St Paul's question, 'What do you have that you did not receive' (1Corin.4:7) brought much clarity and direction to leave behind what was only a season and move on looking into the larger domains of life which are still unfolding. In fact it is during the past one year when I reflected and wrote a lot in an earnest pursuit to cross the bridge to go to the other side of the call fo life. 

As I was about to leave the garden after the walk, I came across the jasmine bunch at the edge of our courtyard. 


I felt moved that there are many buds in this bunch which would soon open! This is the mystery of life that life is larger because of cluster of many experiences. It is life we are called to celebrate! That is what I am learning to do!

It is when we can live gratefully we can become 'helping hands' to others. 

M.C.Mathew (text and photo)

29 June, 2020

Sunbirds are named after the male birds!



Salim Ali, well known for his contribution to identification of bird species in the Indian subcontinent described five types of sun birds in is book, 'The book of IndIan Birds'. I noticed that all of them are described by the appearance of the male birds. 

This Purplerumped sun bird(second photo) has its female pair (first photo), which is olive brown with yellow breast. 

Although most birds are similarly named after the appearance of the male birds, it is in the family of sunbirds I find the contrast in appearance between male and female birds conspicuously contrasting!

I find this rather odd! The female birds get only a subsidiary reference in the description of birds. Why should it be that way!

The sunbirds shake their body and quick to move from place to place. It is the movement of the leaves in the shrubs or tree which call our attention to them as they are only less than 10 cm. or less in size. 

I have noticed that they are one of the well groomed birds in the garden! They have fixed flight stations and nearly precise timings of the visits to each station. 

They seek after nectar in our garden!

M.C.Mathew (text and photo)

Giving is the way of living!

Letter-11

Dear Friends,

Greetings and warm regards as you live and work in challenging times and difficult settings!


 


 




 

Let me tell you the story of the buttercups and honey bees in our garden! 

 

The butter cups are open for about three hours in the morning. During the rest of the time, they remain folded, and not noticeable among its foliage.  Their petals are thin and fragile, but colourful and gorgeous to look at. It is the colour and the delicate parallel design from the centre of the petals to the periphery, which make these flowers stand out. The golden hue at the base of the petals, which blend gently with the rest of the white colour of petals appears like halo at the base of the flower. The petals are so spread out to the periphery that there is a hollow in the centre, which is a resting place for insects, honeybees and ants, while receiving nectar. The last picture is the appearance of the flowers when the open up and fold up. 

 

Most of the mission hospitals are fragile and vulnerable in more than one way. At this time, with the COVD 19 pandemic, most hospitals go through a stressful time. Yet our hospitals are the places, where people come trustfully. Not only that they receive help and care, but most of them go back refreshed because they came to a place where they felt valued and affirmed. It is an oasis of comfort and hope for many who come. A doctor who went to join a mission hospital recently said, ‘the buildings look old needing repair and renovation, but the staff are warm and work effusively. People come because they trust the mission hospital’. The staff in that hospital receive salary every month proportionate to the income of the hospital. Is this not ‘giving without counting the cost’! All of you give more than what you receive. 

 

The patients come to a mission hospital to receive ‘nectar’ and go back restored! What might be this nectar! Your approach of, inclusiveness and distributive justice, sense of fairness, honesty, friendliness, and going out of your way to help,  restricting the cost of care to an affordable level, avoiding procedures that are not needed, exercising highest level of ethical practice, excellence in care, compassionate use of technology etc.

 

A doctor told me that there would be some at the weekly mobile clinic, who came to have a ‘darshan’ of the clinical team, even when they have no illness. They make this ’pilgrimage’ to honour those who keep them healthy. You give away your ‘five loaves and two fish’ like the boy in the miracle of Jesus feeding the five thousand, so that God can bless your giving! It is in a mission hospital miracles take place almost every day!

 

I recall a sad incident when Anna and I were working at N.M.Wadia Hospital, Pune when a two year old child was brought gasping following eating ground nuts. Although the nut was taken by a bronchoscope from the trachea, he could not be revived. Dr Winifred Bailey, Obstetrician and Medical Superintendent, who heard about this incident offered free medical aid to the whole family for three years. She was so moved hearing about the loss of the only child of a young couple, that she offered to look after the child’s mother during her next pregnancy. This happened two years after my graduation. It was an introduction to the mission of Christian health care! This expression of thoughtfulness stays with me as an example of a ‘second mile journey’ that I have come across in other mission hospitals!   

 

With warm regards, 

 

M.C.Mathew 29.6.2020

 

28 June, 2020

The missing palm leaves!




I noticed today morning that some leaves in the palm tree above,  which is in our front garden, looked damaged as if its leaves were stripped away. I had a suspicion that it might be a bird, collecting this for a nest. So I decided to sit in our portico and watch for a while. 

Sure enough, a crow pheasant arrived in the scene. Even before I could get the camera out, it had torn a strip of the green leaf and was ready to fly away.  



It returned in a less than a minute for the next trip, this time working on the yellow leaf. 



I watched the bird fly away to the nutmeg tree and disappeared in to the thick foliage.


While this was happening another crow pheasant was perched in the adjacent tree watching the movements of its pair. They kept communicating with each other with regular bird songs.

 
The post monsoon is the time for mating for some birds. For those of us who like watching the cycles of bird life, watching the mating behaviour and nesting pattern are significant events. Usually one bird takes the lead to make the nest. 

These events which take place in nature tell us a lot about the need to preserve the environment to keep it bird friendly. We have few other bird families in our garden, Magpie Robin, sunbird, Babbler and Kingfisher.

If different birds are around in a garden, it is due to the territorial adjustments they are willing to make. 

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)



27 June, 2020

Picture of the week



Rain or no rain, the honey bees are in our garden for their nectar!

I am amazed that even a honey bee is provided for!

That is enough to rest our fear of the unknown!

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)

The fear associated with cloud formation !




On Wednesday this week, the morning sky was frightening to look at as it looked dark with impending heavy rain. But by 8 am the sky looked bright with sunshine. All that happened in our village was a short shower, not heavy at all corresponding to the clouds noticed earlier in the day.

 
The fear that the cloud formation caused was actually a knee jerk reaction. 

This gave me an opportunity to revisit the roots of fear or anxiety within me. 

I have grown up with a feeling that heavy clouds would cause heavy rain and such a heavy downpour can cause damage to property, uproot trees, cause the compound wall to fall, flood the property, etc. Th worst is that the electricity connection would get disrupted for hours sometimes. All of this happened in the past and therefore are true. 

So fear resides within me. 

Fear is an emotional reaction. Sometimes, instead of it being a healthy consciousness of what to do when there is an unexpected event, it can create a perpetual anxiety state. 

I listened to a colleague yesterday about how the recent pandemic of COVID 19 has caused fear among people. The latest connected with it is lack of beds in the hospitals because of which people live in fear of not getting good help when they need it. 

For me fear can be a paralysing experience. It is fear with makes me hesitant even to take initiatives. 

I wrote a letter to a former colleague with whom I had a difference of opinion on some matters earlier. I kept postponing to write for fear of a reaction. What I received was a warm letter of encouragement and appreciation. 

Fear dominates only when we loose sight of the abundance of wellness and protection we receive each day. 

'Fear not', a oft repeated statement of Jesus of Nazareth to His followers is becoming a resounding note in my soul now, because, I feel that life lived in freedom of fear can be more liberating for oneself and life giving for others. 

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)


25 June, 2020

Changes in behaviour !



Dulcie used to wander in the garden and outside the garden, whenever there was an opportunity. Dulcie was the first one to get out of the portico door when ever it was not latched. She developed her style of pushing the grill door open, with her body. There were occasions, when she escaped unnoticed and wandered for a while without us being aware of this. There were occasions when the passers by brought her from outside the gate. It is about a year now, since we blocked all her escape routes to the road beyond our property. Now she wanders within the garden. She would return and wait at the steps, if by then we had not called out for her. Only if she had to wait without being brought in for a long time, she would bark to alert us. Where as if she was accidentally locked in any room, she would bark till we heard her to open the door. 

Dulcie is guilty of escaping unnoticed for her pleasure walk. It is her pattern that she would lie prostrate as soon as we notice her on the steps and quietly come in and go to her bed. If we were to scold her she would wag her tail. She has habitually escaped any punishment. 

Now there is a change. She would still run out as in the picture above, but would wait at the walkway pondering whether to proceed or not! If we noticed her and called her, she would slowly walk towards the courtyard and stay there without getting in. 

A pet dog usually hovers around the masters. She does that abundantly. What I described above is an exception. 

Dulcie is not comfortable to get wet. Now as it is raining most of the time, she is now on her chair in the veranda and looking at the gate longingly. Even if the grill door is open she is not in a hurry to go out. 

What a change because she does not want to get wet. 

In a conversation with a family yesterday, I heard a story of a three years old child who is often outdoor and would defy if asked to come in. Since the monsoon started he is mostly indoor. He also feels uncomfortable to bathe as he has some aversion to water.

There are likes and dislikes. 

I have a suspicion confirmed by a Veterinary doctor, that dogs change behaviour spontaneously when they are treated kindly. It is when they are harshly treated they become distant from their masters. 

I have a similar story to tell about children. When they are treated kindly and soberly, they have better compliant behaviour as they do it out of respect for parents rather than out of fear. 

I have disturbing stories from parents, when they are tired of punishing. 

I have also have many encouraging stories from parents, when their kindness and patient conversations have revived the behaviour of their children. 

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)

Humour in daily life !



As I drove in to the college campus through its gate two days back, I noticed this Myna in a playful mood in the lawn inspite of a drizzle. I stopped to take its picture. It took a few minutes before I could get the bird to be still. A voice from behind, said to me, 'You are getting wet. You pass through the gate in the morning and evening and you do not stop to take my photograph'. It was the watchman at the gate whom I usually wish every time I drive through. It is true that I do not down the glass for him to see me wishing him. 

While I turned to take his photo the signal came on the camera screen, 'change battery'. I opened the door of the car to get the spare battery from my bag. When I turned back, I saw the watchman running towards the gate. His supervisor had come on his morning round to inspect!

So I continued chasing the Myna till I got a decent photo of its frolicking in the rain. As I got back into the car, I noticed another Myna at a show distance away carrying a lens cover between its bills. That was when I realised that I had dropped the lens cap. Any unthoughtful action would make the Myna fly away with it! So I got out of the car quietly and waited till Myna dropped it on the ground. I rushed towards the Myna as soon as it dropped it on the ground giving it no time to pick up the lens cap before it flew away. It was a thriller scene. I was glad that the watchman did not notice it, lest the planning needed at that time might have been disturbed by his enthusiastic chase of the Myna.

I did stop at the gate in the evening to greet the watchman, but it was another watchman at the gate. 

The Myna and watchman became a good story of humour for me to remember!

I was late at work for half an hour. But I got a photo of a Myna in motion! 

M.C.Mathew (text and photo)

New shoots in Monsoon





Our garden has a decorated look with new shoots in plants and trees following the monsoon rain. As I walk past them, I get a feeling of surrounded by new life.

The new life in nature is an invitation for experiencing new life within as well! I had an experience of this during this week. A former colleague wrote a letter which initiated exchanges of letters between us in a peasant and encouraging tone. It was a relationship which needed nurture and attention. I felt within me a new freedom and comfort.  

The plants and trees on receiving monsoon showers feel revived after a long summer spell. So it is with relationships. It too needs a refreshing touch. A strained relationship is like walking through a desert. The desert journey is dry and exhausts us. Therefore an oasis of refreshment alone can refresh relationships. 

The more close and wide one is involved with people and situations, it is likely that more attention would be needed to keep relationships fresh and renewed.

The pain of strained in relationship is a burden some of us carry.  At an opportune time, an olive branch of  renewal in relationships is the way forward for returning to a communicating level in every relationship. 

Life becomes enlarged and living become lighter when that happens!

M.C.Mathew(text and photo) 




24 June, 2020

Humour in daily life !



As I stood in the middle of the road photographing this tree, the vehicles coming from both sides stopped, but did not honk. 

One of them told me as I moved out of the road, 'I thought you were a policeman in plane clothes with a speed camera. So I stopped'! The other person said, 'I thought you were shooting for a film. I stopped that my car would come in the shot'!

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)

A little bird and a fisherman!




At dawn, while looking out for bird movements between trees, I heard a giant bird song, which got subdued in between in the morning breeze. It took a while for me to locate the site from where the song was coming. It was a song of a sunbird perched in a dry stem about 100 feet above the ground. The movements of its bill was the evidence of its singing. It song filled the calm air. There was music in its birdcall.

I read a story of an industrialist who met a fisher man in the beach, who was resting beside his boat. He asked the fisherman, 'why are you not at the sea fishing'. The fisherman replied, 'I caught enough for the day'. The industrialist said, 'catch more so that you can earn more', to which the fisherman replied, 'what will I do if I catch more'! ThE industrialist went on to entice him with the prospect of buying a nylon net, motorising his boat, buying another boat to rent it out, earning more to live content, etc. The fisherman replied, 'What would I do then'?. The industrialist replied,'Then you could sit down and enjoy life'. Th fisherman replied, 'What do you think I am doing right now', said the contented fisherman.

A small bird with with its just audible song and a fisherman with his deep sense of contentment!

Both these tell me that life is for living fully and content. 

The sun bird cannot sing like a cuckoo bird, nor would a fisherman want to go after money losing the capacity for enjoyment. Both of them show the way to live each day thankfully and purposefully!

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)


23 June, 2020

A singing pair!



I watched these birds singing together at daybreak, sitting on the compound wall of our house. They sang tunefully and in tandem.

Anna and I have recently talked about our calling while we live in this cottage in a quiet village. 

It is what we are to others what really matter. 

It is now about 24 months, since I started writing to people with whom I have had some association to express my gratitude and kind regards. I have some more to people in the list.

As I watched these birds and heard them sing, I felt touched by their bird call of celebration of the morning. This stayed with me for a while and felt taken up by a message that resonated within my soul. They seemed to sing for me. It is this which touched me most. 

There are occasions when one might have a surprise and heightened awareness of God consciousness. 

In the book, 'the song of the bird' Anthony de Mello, SJ has a story on page 39, on 'Thomas Aquinas stops writing'. '' The story goes that Thomas Aquinas, one of the world's ablest theologians, suddenly stopped writing towards the end of his life. When his secretary complained that his work was unfinished, Thomas replied: 'Bother Reginald, when I was celebrating the liturgy some months ago I experienced something of the Divine. That day I lost all the appetite for writing. In fact, all I have written about God seems to me now to be like straw' "

It is when I read the above passage, I became aware of the largeness of small  or short lived happenings in our lives. They create a new inward journey of nearness to our own soul, where God is present silently.

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)


Flowers and fruits !







The guava tree in our garden has flowers and fruits in different stages of growth. It is a tree that I watch closely because the tree has fruits or flowers during all the seasons of the year. 

It is a vision for life- to remain fruitful and bless others!

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)

 

The morning and evening !






I took time to stop at the hibiscus garden in the MOSC campus yesterday morning. I was greeted by bright flowers and buds as shown in the first two photographs. It was refreshing and a good way top begin on a cloudy day.

It rained all through the day. The third picture is of the rain drops seen through the window of the office room I occupy. 

I stopped at the hibiscus garden in the evening on my way back from the hospital. Some of the hibiscus flowers looked folded, drooping and fading away prematurely! 

During the next 25 minutes of my drive home, this picture stayed with me. 

The flowers would have a longer life of three to five days normally. But it was cut short to just a day or so due the rain. 

At the seventh decade of my life, life is still full of meaning and hope for me. I love living because life invites me to live fully and content. 

I recalled during the drive instances when I suffered and felt threatened by the circumstances. 

The rain is good for plants and but not so much for the flowers. The plant  protects the flowers in rain and  heat. The flower although fragile does withstand the hostile rain.  The petals looked droopy, but it is still held strongly by its calyx and stays attached to the plant. 

I felt encouraged by this thought. However hostile is the situation, God holds us firmly and securely!

I remembered the words of Jesus of Nazareth, 'I am the one and you are the branches; he who abides in me and I in him he beers much fruit..'(John.15:5).

That is when I remembered sighting the tree next to the hibiscus plant, full of fruits. 


The drooping flower and the abundant fruits- they both make the picture of life complete.

There are times when we might feel burdened and heavy, but that experience is only part of the story. The other side of the story is that life also bears fruits. Fruits are for giving away to others and not for oneself. 

The vulnerable flower and the fruit giving tree! Lief is both of that!

M.C.Mathew(text and photo)



22 June, 2020

Three women, one girl and three men!



I kept gazing yesterday at daybreak on the hill a kilometre beyond our cottage. It was drizzling and the sight had two distinct appearances. The first layer of trees looked l bright and the second layer of trees on the hill beyond the valley looked covered by the humid air.  The sky was overcast. The dim sunlight gradually brightened up the valley. 

That is when I remembered that the day was celebrated as 'Fathers' day'. Anna I have been married for forty-five years. That decision created a companionship and journey into intimacy which has made all the difference in our lives. We travelled together in this path of exploring the depth of intimacy to the extent it is humanly possible and both of us have grown because of that trustful self disclosure and growing dependence on each other. We have given and received, which made us richer and larger in our fondness for each other. 

Anna and I feel blessed to have been given three children. Arpit, Anita and Anandit. Anita travelled back to her eternal home when she was just a few months old following a brief illness. It was her coming and going which gave us our vocation. The formation of the charity ASHIRVAD, and all that happened in Child Development initiatives at Chennai, Nagpur, Vellore, Pondicherry and Kolenchery originated from the message Anita left with us during her brief time with us. 

Arpit and Amy and Anandit and Aswathy and the five children between them are the blessings that Anna and I cherish and celebrate now. They have become the joy and  hope in our lives. They live their lives in ways which make us feel abundantly glad. They choose wisely and circumspectly. They reach out to others in ways which make a difference in the lives of others. 

Amy and Aswathy are remarkable women of humility, kindness, creativity and fortitude. They have become wives with utmost commitment to their husbands and mothers with abundance of love towards their children. It was lovely to hear from each of them yesterday and their offering of love on Father's Day. To know them as they are and live connected with their journey experiences is God's favour towards and Anna and myself. All four of them are in the prime of life and consistently choose wisely to live responsibly before God. They keep others and their needs close to their hearts, which bring immense delight to us. The five grandchildren add colour and joy to our lives. They are children who reflect joyfulness and learning instinct in their lives. 

Anna and I feel grateful to Amy's parents and Aswathy's parents for who they have been to them during their growing up years, because of which both of them are women of much grace and cheer.

A father is a man and a husband, who later becomes a parent. Father is a co-parent. It is the mother who makes the fatherhood complete. It is the mother who turns the house in to a home. I feel immensely grateful to Anna who has been at the centre of all the happenings in my life.   

These were the dominant thoughts yesterday morning as I kept gazing at the hill and the valley from our courtyard. 

It is the psalmist who gives us a vision about the hill. 'I will lift up my eyes to the mountains, from whence shall my help come?'(Psalm. 121:1). He then concluded, 'My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth'!

My help comes from God to be a father. My faults are many in being a husband and father. I am aware of some of them and it is this consciousness which turns me to God for help. To flee from self and live mindfully of the needs and aspirations of the family is a calling to which I offer myself on this Father's Day. 

M.C.Mathew(text and photo) 




21 June, 2020

The conduct of one called to lead!


The Conduct of one called to lead!

 

Anna and I along with Arpit and Anandit, spent a weekend with Alan and Noel Norish in their home at Tunbridge wells, during our stay in Britain in 1987.  It was wintertime and the roads and walkways were wet and slushy with melting snow. They took us for a walk into the countryside. The sights of tall oak and fern trees, meadows covered with melting snow, farmhouses with cattle in protected shelter and stories Alan narrated of his time in the British Army serving in India in the late forties, made that morning most special. 

However, what etched in our memory was something that Alan did after we returned to their home. Our shoes were wet and smeared with mud. We kept them in the shoes rack and sat down for lunch, listening to more stories from Noel and Alan.  When we got ready to go for the evening service at their home church, we were in for a surprise. Alan had cleaned our shoes, dried and polished them. It embarrassed us, but for Noel and Alan, it was only an ordinary act of kindness. Later that night, when Alan showed a booklet he wrote on leadership for the Bible and Medical Missionary Fellowship, whose Executive Director he was, I was able to interpret what he did to us in the context of his world view on leadership. For Alan and Noel, living with a sense of consciousness of others and carrying them on their hearts was the mission of leadership. 

 

Thirtythree years have passed since then. I still regard the above experience as my introduction to a journey in exploring the realm of spirituality of leadership. The ‘mantra’ of leadership has been researched and expounded extensively since we entered the management driven approach in business about forty years ago. Let me introduce five dimensions while considering the mission when called to lead.

1. Calling

2. Enablement

3. Intuition

4.Discernment

5. Prophetic sense.

 

1. Calling

I happened to watch one evening, while returning home from work, a seven years old child from the neighbourhood, running towards the sports filed. I asked, ‘Are you up to some mischief?’ He said, while continuing to run, ‘I must go to cheer my brother as his team is playing football with a tough team’. The purpose of this child was to be present at the football field. His mission was to encourage his brother and his team. His motivation was his sense of belonging to his brother and an engagement in his interest.  These are three ingredients of a calling. 

 

Recently, I spent a few days with a friend, who is embarking on beginning a new service for young people.  In his presentation to some of us who are his friends, he said,’ I cannot but do it. This mission has grown within me over the last three years’! None of us needed any persuasion to be drawn by his passion and belief.  The calling begins with an awareness, which often leads to self-appraisal of the responsibilities involved and a season of preparation followed by a statement of the mission to make it known to others.

 

Mr. Narayan Murthy, the former founder Chairman of the Infosys, was brought back to lead the organizations Infosys, to revive its fortune and direction. In his acceptance response, he seems to have said, ‘I accept your confidence in me to make a difference. I know only little, more than what I knew five years back, when I stepped down. But together, we can think, work and find our way’. In this response there was confidence, hesitation and direction. This form of integration of mixed feelings, associated with a calling, was also the personal experiences of Abraham, Moses and Samuel.

 

The Biblical narration of Abram’s call (Gen12.1-3) expresses the purpose, mission and motivation. ‘So Abram went forth as the Lord has spoken to him’ (v.4) It is explicit that God called and Abram responded. In case of Moses, the call came clearly (Exo.3.10) and the response (Exod.4.10-13) was one of hesitation, clarification and authentication. The inclusion of Aaron (vs.14-16) in this mission, to compensate the deficiency Moses had in speaking, is a good illustration of how God prepares a person to do something, which is ordinarily beyond one’s own capacity. The call has a transcending dimension of all human possibilities. This explains the divine logic, when a least expected person is sometimes placed in a position of responsibility, to the surprise of many. This is illustrated even more vividly in the case of Saul, (I Sam.9.21). Saul was self-conscious of his humble origin, ordinary family heritage and personal limitations. When Samuel while anointing Saul with oil, said, ‘Has not the Lord anointed you ruler over His inheritance’ (I Sam.10.1), it was an announcement of the intent and content of God’s call. 

 

The story of anointing of David (I Samuel 19. 1-13.) brings out another dimension of this calling. David was chosen from among all his brothers by Prophet Samuel and ‘..the spirit of the Lord came heavily upon David from that day’(v.13). And yet only in 2 Samuel 2.1-7, we see the actualization of this when he formally became the king. The in between time was spent in isolation due to the hostility of Saul. After the death of Saul, David sought after the Lord (v.1) to receive the mandate to be the king. The calling was sure, but its consummation needed endurance, preparation, maturity, and change of heart with compassion and kindness. 

 

During a recent visit to a leading institution, I came across two fairly well-known people. One kept pursuing his mission relentlessly and patiently since his coming to the institution in spite of setbacks and obstacles with a cheerful and humble spirit. The other lost his direction and got entangled in seeking for position and control, during which process he reduced himself to be controversial and stressful, devoid of joy of service and relationship. This suggests that a calling needs an on-going nurture and diligent attention to live out that calling. 

 

Our calling is not just an invitation to a vocation or place of work or a responsibility, but a commission to fulfil what St. Paul wrote in Ephesians 1.11. We are ‘predestined according to His purpose, who works all things after the counsel of His will’. Every person who desires to be a disciple of Jesus is under obligation to live fully in tune with this godly calling. Our lives and living are to be a reflection of this calling. 

 

This applies even more to those in positions of leadership. It is by conforming to our calling, we leave a trail of affirmation of its value and worth. Jesus of Nazareth expressed this in a statement, ‘My meat is to do the will of the father who sent me’ (John 4:34). Those in leadership positions have an obligation to others, whom they oversee, to be examples in their rootedness in God and authenticate it through their doings. To have a sense of calling of God in one’s life, with an attitude of prayerful enquiry and openness is a mark of one called to lead.

 


2. Enablement.

Our lives are formed by our inner orientation to God and integration of life events. Most of us do not feel fully ready or equipped when we accept a leadership role. The fear of the unknown can be a challenge. Our own reading of the opportunity and understanding of the dynamics of the web of responsibilities is from a distance, until we enter into the position of leadership. A scholarly Bishop, whom I knew well before he was consecrated, mentioned to me after two years of being in the episcopal responsibility, that he had to learn essentials in conflict resolution, pastoral care and to relate to tense situations during elections to positions of responsibility. His spiritual exercises of meditating on the scripture, times of silence, conversations with his spiritual director and regular retreats became his enabling resources. 

 

A professional who works in a multinational firm mentioned to me that he would have his lunch privately three times in a week and practice a period of interior silence before he went for the company meetings. He made such occasions his personal preparation time to address challenges in his demanding leadership role. Once, it was during a silent time, before a meeting, that he was ‘given’ an idea, which got endorsed by the top leadership, which paved the way for peaceful settlement of a pending dispute with a collaborator.  He evolved to be a good mentor, confidant and a counsellor to some people in his organization,. 

    

All leadership responsibilities need skills of listening, thinking and analysing and sensing the open door of opportunity. Most of us would need formal and informal preparation for them. There are courses and learning modules, which we can subscribe to, to enable us formally in the leadership formation. The informal preparation, through reading of biographies, thematic articles, or interviewing others in leadership positions, or receiving feedback from colleagues and members of the governing board are valuable enabling resources. 

 

Late Bishop Jack Dane, Bishop of Sydney of the Church of England, well known for his pastoral care and counselling skills once mentioned to me in a conversation that his training in leadership was largely informal. He surrounded himself with professionals, whom he turned to, in specific situations of needs or crisis. His habit of consulting and not leaning on to his understanding alone became his enabling resource.

 

The people whom we are called to oversee or work with, would have advanced professional knowledge, and years of work experience. To be a resource leader to such a group would need advanced self- directed adult education. The core content of this adult education is to make the leader a thoughtful, considerate, sensitive in approach. To see others as human resources or as a ‘knowledge capital’ and value them and communicate this effectively to them, would need self-giving optic. This in itself is a learning journey for most of us. 

 

Jesus of Nazareth was committed to a long personal enabling journey. He began by pursuing scholarship of the Jewish doctrine, scripture and the law. That was what made him to choose to be with the scholars of the law in the temple at Jerusalem, while rest of the family was caught up in the festivity of the occasion. He enabled himself by subjecting to the discipline of his home, family profession of carpentry and the religious rituals of his home and community. He prepared himself for the transition to his life’s calling, by going to the desert to fast and pray for forty days. He surrounded himself with 12 followers with whom he was in an intense dialogue and discourse about the kingdom of God and righteous living. They gave him resonances, insights and information, which were formative for his mission. The hostility displayed by the religious leaders of that time, when he healed people on the Sabbath or pronounced a woman caught in an act adultery to be set free, etc. revealed the inner darkness of others around him. His final mission to endure the cross vicariously was facilitated through many such formative encounters and experiences.  

 

Those called to lead, who have got used to enabling themselves by personal discipline and good practices are those, who would transcend their personal needs and reach out to others. Late Dr. Paul Brand, while he was teaching at the Christian Medical College Hospital, Vellore, was in the habit of visiting men students in the hostel. If anyone missed a clinic or class, he would use the occasion of his visit to teach him what the student missed. Late Dr.Benjamin Pulimood continued this practice, which gradually became a weekly Bible study. I know of five doctors who used to attend this Bible study, who now faithfully serve in the mission hospitals in different parts of India. Dr.Pulimood during his one year sabbatical, spent his time being with his former students to encourage and support them. During a conversation with Dr. Pulimmod few weeks before his home call, in response to a question about this, he said, ’those in leadership ought to be mindful of the least and those struggling to find their way’.  Those who enable themselves become enablers of others. 



3. Intuition

Most of us would recall instances, when we sensed an urge to do something, which was not in our plan or consideration. Later, we would have realized how that inner prompting was most valuable or crucial. Such an intuitive sense seems to have saved people from dangers and perils.  

 

One illustration of this intuitive sense from the life of Jesus is recorded in Mark.6.45-51. ‘And seeing (sensing), them straining at the oars …Jesus came to them walking on the sea’ (v.48). Jesus was far away in the mountain, in prayer, and the disciples had gone out in a boat to go to Bethsaida.  Jesus brought calmness to the sea by getting into the boat with them. Jesus could sense what was in the hearts of people. He knew when a question was asked to trap him. He foresaw what Peter would do when a servant lady would seek his identity during the trial of Jesus. Jesus could predict what Judas would do when enticed with money to betray Jesus. 

 

Such a sense of presence to an inner consciousness and awareness of situations around, is what we refer to as intuition. It is a habit many of us can cultivate by practice. Those in leadership need it all the more.

 

Late, Dr. L.B.M. Joseph, a former director of the Christian Medical college, Vellore exercised this intuitive sense during the turbulent time of the strike of the employees. At a crucial point of the strike, when the state government supported the strike, the hospital service was seriously compromised. The associate director was arrested. Dr. Joseph decided to represent the matter to the central government.  He had a flight to catch from Chennai early in the morning to go to Delhi. He had a strong sense that he would be arrested if he went by the regular route. He took a detour to reach Chennai only to know later, that there were three police check posts set up in the night on the main road to arrest him. There were several instances when he and his colleagues relied on their intuitions, during the strike, which changed the course of events in their favour. Talking about this intuitive experience, Dr. Joseph. once told me, ‘This is a God-given spirit of insight and clarity. If we can be in a habit of prayer, we can increase this ability. It is the voice of God from within’.    

 

For those in leadership, intuition is a grace given to lead wisely, prudently and decisively. The instance of king Saul consenting to the intuition of David, to challenge Goliath (I Sam.17:37) is a vivid illustration of what leaders can overcome, when they are sensitive to their own intuitions and those of others. 

 

One of my colleagues in the department, mentioned in our team meeting, ‘what if we asked the administration to allot an independent house to begin an Early Learning Centre for children?’. All of us felt instantly that, it was the right thing to do. I met the chief administrator of the hospital an hour later with the request. He said that, ’You came at the right time. We have one independent house vacant and we were about to make an allotment today’. He allotted the house for our use, which is where the Early Learning Centre is located, which welcomes children and parents for a home-based pre-school preparation. 

 

There can be turning points, if we are habitually inclined to sense and act on our intuitions. However, the intuitive insights need to be subject to the spirit of discernment.

 


4. Discernment.

The prayer of Solomon, (I kings.3:6-9) is often quoted as definition of discernment. ‘So, give thy servant, an understanding heart to judge they people, to discern between good and evil. For who is able to judge this great people of thine?’. It is a process of making sense of facts and situations to make a truthful and wise choice. It is this discernment process which Solomon exercised, when two women came with a dispute over two children, one dead and the other alive, both owning the motherhood of the living child (IKings.3:16-28). The proposal to divide the child in to two halves, made the mother of the living child to plead to save the child. This made Solomon to know, who was the true mother of the living child and offered the child to her. The other woman, had pleaded to divide the child in to two halves. This is an outstanding example of the spirit of discernment. In this process of discernment, we come across five steps which led to a clarity, Listening (vs.17-22), paraphrasing both arguments (v.23), weighing the merits of the arguments (v 24), proposing an option (v.25) and arriving at the decision (v.26, 27). Often discernment is possible, only as much as a person is open and willing to revise one’s own perceptions or inclinations. 

 

There are situations when individual discernment is needed to make a decision. Philip had to make such a choice (Acts.8:25-40), when an angel of the Lord spoke to Philip to go to Gaza, to meet an Ethiopian, who was travelling in a chariot. The journey was through a desert road and it looked a long and difficult journey. Philip discerned the voice well and he was able to interpret the Scripture to the Ethiopian, leading him to a faith journey.  

 

There are occasions when collective discernment is necessary. There are well-established Ignatian and Benedictine traditions that instruct us to this process of discernment. The main thrust of these and other traditions is openness, prayer, waiting, sharing and finding a consensus. 

 

When the current Pope had to be elected, none of the five probable cardinals was the final choice. Pope Francis became the choice through the discerning process. One of the probable cardinals made it known publicly that he felt disinclined to be included in the panel of the probable persons, as the discerning process commenced.  The heart of the discernment is to seek the mind of Christ. It was this St. Paul wished for all of us, when he wrote in Philippians .2:5, ‘Have this attitude in yourselves, which was also in Christ Jesus..’.

 

We follow democratic or management principles in many decision-making processes in our governing board meetings or other decision making fora. It has its worth and value. However, the discerning process has a transcending foundation. It takes us to exercise the prophetic dimension of leadership. It is rooted in faith and hope and not always in logic and circumstance.

 

When late Dr. A.K.Tharien came to start a medical work at Oddanchataram seventy-five years back, many dissuaded him from doing so, as famine and drought had prevailed in that region for about five years. There were reports of people turning to saw dust as their food. Commenting on this, Dr. Tharien said in a meeting that, he had already spent six months in discernment to come to a decision, while working at the C.S.I Hospital Kancheepuram. The Christian Fellowship Hospital is a living example of a call that was wisely discerned. 

 

A leader with such a sense of clarity of purpose and confidence in pursuing a mission is often an inspiration to others. This is one way of ushering the kingdom of God.

 


5. Prophetic sense

In a leadership responsibility, there are existential realities, which consume our attention and energy. There can be challenges and difficulties, which shall test our patience. There will be opposition and resistance, when the leadership does not accommodate the personal interests of some, who want to seek benefits for themselves.

 

Nehemiah encountered such a situation (Nehem.4:1-8), when his mission to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem was fiercely resisted and ‘all of them conspired to fight against Jerusalem and cause a disturbance in it (v.8). But Nehemiah prayed to God and set up guard against them day and night (v.8). He received affirmation for this journey from the calling he received during his prayer times (Nehem.1:4-11)

 

The prophetic sense calls for understanding the contemporary context and approaching the challenges from a divine perspective. Many organizations are borrowing the business management model of ‘strategic planning’ for staying afloat with a mission. It may help us to some extent. However, how can logic, analysis, reason alone be the foundations for capturing the purpose of God. God’s ways include mystical and miraculous dimensions.

 

The O.P. Tyagi bill introduced in the Parliament in 1979, to prevent religious conversion was in the final stage of getting assent from the parliament when late Mr. Morarji Desai was the prime Minister. No protest or appeal from religious leaders seemed to stop the then government from passing this legislation. Mother Teresa conveyed her personal objection to the Prime Minister in passing of this bill and encouraged her sisterhood of missionaries of Charity to pray that the government’s efforts would fail. There was a political realignment around the same time and the Prime Minister had to resign and the bill never got passed. 

 

A prophetic leadership is characterized by a habitual pursuit of God’s will rather than seek some immediate answers to tide over a situation. I know of institutions who sell their land and assets to cash on the real estate boom in the hope that there will be enough money collected to pay the debts and offer more service to those in in need.  But corruption, poor governance and nepotism, which caused the debts, were never addressed. Some of the institutions plunged into greater crisis of survival even after receiving large sum of money from real estate. This is an example of using leadership for gain and personal prosperity.   

 

A prophetic leadership would transcend these disguised personal intentions and reverently pursue ways to honour God through honest, transparent and inspirational examples to build people and prepare a faith community for pilgrimage. It this ‘remnant’ that I believe Jesus referred to as being the ‘salt’ and ‘light’, who have a calling to live incarnationally.

 

I experienced a struggle to exercise the prophetic call, while involved in the governing council meetings of an institution. The management chose to suspend the undergraduate admission for one year, till it got the full right to admit students following the admission process as practiced before. Some of us kept exerting pressure on the administration to consent to admit students following the current guidelines of the government and continue to engage this issue in the court of Law. But the administration decided other wise and that institution did not have one batch of students for that year. Looking back, I regret that the administration took an easy option of convenience to inconvenience students waiting for admission to the institution. The administration had hoped that there would be a public uproar and reaction which might send a message to the government to consent to the repeated representation of the institution to allow its autonomy in admission. None of that happened. 

 

There are times when those of us who are called to lead can lose an opportunity to live and act prophetically if we succumb to the majority opinion. Even in such instances, God would redeem the situation, if only we can return to revise the direction in a humble attitude, freed from our biases. 

 

I have explored the theme, ‘the conduct of one called to lead’ from my personal experiences and some Biblical examples. I hope it would arouse interest for a dialogue and collective enquiry.

 


M.C.Mathew (text and photo)